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Last Post: Nov 07 2009 08:45 PM by: Looking to Help
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tlane
Member since: 3/31/09
i hate my life
Nov 01 2009 06:41 AM

over the past few weeks my anxiety attacks have increased and my bipolar disorder has gotten to the point where my deperssion is costant and i can't get happy my threapist has now got me seeing three times a week and has up my dosage on a lot of my meds she wanted me to take a leave of absence from work and check my self into a hospital as a precaution while that wouldn't be a problem but i trying to stay out of haospitals since i wouldn't check in she up my sessions to threee times a week I am more afraid that she might try an involantary admittance if don't improve that is what really scares me
Trish


db0417
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 01 2009 08:34 AM

tlane. I don't understand bypolar but have a cousin with it. If she tries fight it herself she always loses. You need to do what the drs may suggest. When the bipolar flares up you may think you have control but it is evident to EVERYONE else that you don't. DO WHAT THE DOCTOR SAYS for your own good. It's important!


KrazyLegs1…
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 01 2009 11:26 AM

Trish,
My best friend is bipolar, and she has to be involuntarily admitted every time she's hospitalized. It is not pleasant because they can make all the decisions as far as how long you stay, etc. I have borderline personality disorder and major depressive disorder. I just got done with a program of assertive community treatment because I too was in and out of the hospital. I was helped tremendously by it, and I am not sure where you live, but you may ask your therapist if your state offers it. My best friend (who I am speaking of) was also a client and has since transitioned out of the program, as well. If that is not an option, I would talk to your therapist and if you can't come to some sort of agreement as far as your treatment is concerned, I would search for a new therapist. At the moment, you seem very upset, so I would give it some time before you make a decision like that, but remember YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF YOUR TREATMENT. If you aren't satisfied, you can change therapists. I know you don't know me, but I have been through the wringer as far as mental health stuff goes, so I do know where you're coming from. If you would like to chat privately, feel free to message me.
Kelly


Looking to…
Member since: 9/22/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 01 2009 09:42 PM

Trish,
I too have bipolar disorder. I was medically retired from the military for it because I was hospitalized 5x in a 9 month period. One of which, I was forced into. I would do what the doctors suggest as long as you have a good psychiatrist who can work with your meds. That is key for me. Without my meds, I'm up a creek without a paddle. If your depression is that bad, like mine gets, then it may do you some good to check in for a week or so just to get yourself feeling better. Remember, the hospitals are there to help, it is nothing to be ashamed of. Please feel free to message me if you want to talk.


KrazyLegs1…
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 02 2009 02:23 AM

A good psychiatrist is key. I have to go through the community mental health agency because my insurance (due to being on disability) is medicare/caid. If you have insurance through your job that is decent, your options for doctors are more open than mine are. I hate to generalize, but based on my experience, psychiatrists who work for community mental health agencies and are decent are hard to come by since they agree to their terms. The turnover rate for doctors at my local CMH is relatively high. I have a lot of medical problems and they don't always consider them before putting me on medicines, where when I was able to see a "private" psychiatrist they are better about doing that. Good luck, and the offer is still open. ((hugs))


skittles
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 02 2009 08:06 AM

you know this is supposed to be a forum for people who are incontinent but you know it is so much more ehen that and that is good,and Trish I hope things turn around for you soon.


Mamamor
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 04 2009 01:52 PM

Trish, I have a bipolar friend...I know that the psychiatrist is the MOST important to keep your meds in line. The person I know has never failed her meds however I think her meds have failed her every 10 years or so & then need major adjusting through the M.D.


tlane
Member since: 3/31/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 05 2009 01:42 AM

i have been going to my sessions three times a week and i did talk to my attorney and found out that a involuntary admittance for me would be next to impossible since i have a full time job and except for time when i was a teen ager i have never tried to hurt myself i always take my meds and have never gone off them my panic attacks and everthing else does not seem to be getting any better so after todays session my therpist asked if i had given any thought about checking into a hospital I told i had and would not be checking in anytime in the near future or the distant future she then readjusted my meds up them a little more i take so many i got a pharmacy in my purse hoprfully the meds will start to work again
Trish


Looking to…
Member since: 9/22/09
RE: i hate my life
Nov 07 2009 08:45 PM

Trish,
I have been where you are. I have type 1 bipolar disorder with a history of mixed episodes. I have been hospitalized 5x since April 2008. I too felt like a walking pharmacy. My last hospitalization wasn't because I was depressed or manic, it was because I was toxic with medication to the point where I was incapable of human emotion. LITERALLY!!! It is because of my psychiatric medication that I have urge incontinence. I choose mental stability over continence. Tough choice one has to make. My medication, depakote and geodon in particular, put me in diapers. The urologists have no other explanation because it didn't start until I started taking the bipolar meds, the more I took, the worse it got. I started with pads, then pullups, then diapers. All I can tell you is, to stick it out and talk often with your psychiatrist. It'll take a good one to put you back on track for not all of them are created equal and not all of them are good with meds. You have to find the one that works for you and communicate with them. They are your best defense against this disorder. Please feel free to message me and I will be glad to talk to you. If anyone can understand, I think I can!

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